poetryrepairshop 04.03:022 Contemporary International Poetry online since 1997 poetryrepairshop 04.03:022 choices of a depressive c2004 CAROLE NELSON PHILLIPS
	CAROLE NELSON PHILLIPS choices of a depressive she could: uncork that bottle piss coloured sharp to the nose drink till she puddles at her feet take the man who wants her between her thighs to forget the one who doesn't draw thin metal across flesh till she drips from fingertips uncap a vial whisper prayers twist silver on her finger till sleep came dial a number on a white card		Offcourse	04.03 001 014 015 004 005 006 007 008 009 010 011 012

poetryrepairshop 04.02:022 Contemporary International Poetry online since 1997 Pushing, Pushing c2004 WARD KELLEY

WARD KELLEY Pushing, Pushing You were driven, you know (why, oh why, can't I) and never did locate the correct way out, or proper note to score the flight all the way, all the way. There was something pushing, pushing, from within your being, while your fame and marriages and suicides propelled you through all our decades like a wiry wisp . . . although you know the real impellent generates at the core of your soul. There, there boils the fury of being . . . of residing on this side, a tantrum against this shackle of body; so it never mattered very much if you sang out right, or married right, or performed to expectations; what mattered was the expression of fury channeled into some acceptable means to be heard or seen around this imperfect world. Why, oh why, oh why can't this vision of soul let you go? Why can't you . . . you knew all along you couldn't . . . you knew none of us really could . . . yet you were the wisp who even though you knew you couldn't, still yearned out your trembling question, why, oh why, can't I. from histories of souls

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COMMENTS WARD KELLEY's note: Judy Garland was the assumed name of Frances Gumm (1922-1969). She made her stage debut at age three, spent several years in vaudeville, then at thirteen signed a contract with MGM. She made many memorable movies, most famous of which was The Wizard of Oz, in which she played a role originally intended for Shirley Temple. Garland's personal life was usually in turmoil. The studio put her on diet pills, and before long she also needed pills to sleep and others to stay awake. By age twenty-one she was seeing a psychiatrist regularly.\ Judy Garland married five times, and endured several career disasters. On June 22, 1969, she was found dead on the floor of her London apartment, the coroner attributing her death to an accidental overdose of sleeping pills. Actor Ray Bolger, the scarecrow from Oz, commented, "She just plain wore out."

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