1.
its like not even one year is over.
When I couldn't find your photo
graph it was losing your skin
again. It was there, the
one with your teeth still white, you
laughing near the Charles. When
I had you, I didn't look ahead.
Alive, I couldn't imagine
you wouldn't always take the
car, bus or train to do any
thing you could: make
me tea, stay with some cat
you always wanted more from
as you did me. If you have
a new world down there,
under the roots of trees you
probably have too many phone
calls still. One friend says a
lady bug means her mother is
near. Or when a doll falls
off a chair it's her mama talking.
I believe in little I can't see
or hold tho I have wondered
about words on a sheet or paper
the wind picks up and slams over
cars, as if that came from you.
I don't know if it's good not to
let the dead go, to imagine
they'll be a sign when there never
has. You've never come back
except in dreams where when I
wake up and you're still missing,
you're the photograph I can't stop
looking for
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2.
its like not even one year is over.
When I couldn't find your photo
graph it was losing your skin
again. It was there, the
one with your teeth still white, you
laughing near the Charles. When
I had you, I didn't look ahead.
Alive, I couldn't imagine
you wouldn't always take the
car, bus or train to do any
thing you could: make
me tea, stay with some cat
you always wanted more from
as you did me. If you have
a new world down there,
under the roots of trees you
probably have too many phone
calls still. One friend says a
lady bug means her mother is
near. Or when a doll falls
off a chair it's her mama talking.
I believe in little I can't see
or hold tho I have wondered
about words on a sheet or paper
the wind picks up and slams over
cars, as if that came from you.
I don't know if it's good not to
let the dead go, to imagine
they'll be a sign when there never
has. You've never come back
except in dreams where when I
wake up and you're still missing,
you're the photograph I can't stop
looking for, making the hole
where you aren't deep enough
to fall in
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